Marianna Update #20

20202020202020202020202020202020  Hello family and friends! I had an email prepared Feb. 23rd, and didn't get to sending it until now. I have to rewrite most of it anyway because so much has changed and developed in the past 2 to 3 weeks.  Major Areas to Touch On Being; How the Virus has Affected BSSM, how Bethel Leaders Are Responding, Wisconsin Ministry Trip Testimonies!! My prayers are being sent out to you within this email because I believe in a powerful gospel that is greater than every sickness and disease. May you be healed, covered in unimaginable peace, and HOPE and JOY that is CONTAGIOUS.  You are allowed to be mad, sad, angry. Process though emotions with people and the Lord- no need to stuff them down. Feel grief, but don't let it run rampant and enslave you. Feed on hope. The Joy of the Lord is our strength. By his stripes we are healed, by his blood we are healed, his body and and his blood were broken and bled out for your salvation. God is bigger than an disease, and His ways are higher than our ways.  It's okay to be scared, it's okay to be angry, but you don't have to be alone in your fear and let it control you and run rampant. Sickness is real, and some of my family have caught it and have been recovering! Obviously the issue is much bigger than we realize, but that's why it is necessary to pray and take the appropriate precautions. I've loved how Bethel  has been so honoring to our city and to the people. We have had to cancel our Missions Trips and cancel almost every event, service, class... Bill and Kris both have shared messages asking us to pray, to be safe, and have given a lot of insight into this season. It's pretty incredible to realize that prophecies can be true. Everything in the Old Testament was a prophetic word for Jesus' coming. 1 Corinthians 12, and 14 talks about prophetic gifting today- its VITAL to recognize the prophetic in the body of Christ, as well as diving deep into the word of God.  As a church family (via Live Stream) we read through Psalm 91 yesterday. God is our refuge, and I will declare and confess that I will put all my trust in Him.  We have been praying for a new move of God, and Kris Vallotton prophesied in December that we are in a KAIROS moment. That's God is moving in with his sovereignty. Thus we must be vigilant to what the Lord is doing. I would strongly suggest listening to recent sermons!   I bless you and your family with health and covering.  AHHHH YES.  Here is my favorite part- TESTIMONIES! Wisconsin was one of the BEST trips! (I honestly love every ministry trip ever, but I am slightly biased about this one). I am also so glad we got to go before everything shut down, thanks Papa.. My team was lead by Morgan Faleolo, the incredible worship leader who has gone on tour with Bethel Music. We lead a worship weekend at Refuge Church in Stevens Point, pastored by Matt and Deborah Malleck. They have an incredible ministry and love people so deeply and so well. What a privilege to be able to serve them! We were able to just pour into their staff and have family time with them. The Preaching/Teaching began Saturday Morning, followed by two break out sessions, a break, and then night of worship. Grace, Chevon and I got to lead a workshop about Creating in Worship: Not a Second Class Expression! And got to explore Arts, Writing, Dance, and even talk about Creativity in Business and Technology etc. ! Because Creativity isn't about being a good artist, but partnering with God and c r e a t i n g and expressing in any facet. Also that is an expression of love towards Papa God and it can transform you, and the people around you- releasing healing physically and emotionally, and leading others to Christ. In addition to bring Kingdom ideas and transforming your work places! We did a few declarations and activation, and afterward people came up explaining the breakthrough they were experiencing! SO fun!  For example, one man was sobbing experiencing God's love and found so much freedom in his heart and life that he hadn't been able to access before.  Another man came to me joyfully declaring, I can dance!!! Before he always held back his expression for God and didn't feel permission to dance or jump, but for the first time he danced in worship and felt freedom to fully express his love for God . !!! YAY GOD. The worship night was amazing, we saw many people physically healed and moved to tears as God was clearly moving in the room. During the worship night, we went after healing. Thus, those who were experiencing any sort of pain were asked to raise their hand so we could come pray for them. My drew a beautiful picture of Jesus holding someone, and I instantly felt she was going to release healing through her picture! So I grabbed her hand and we walked over to a woman who had her hand raised. She explained her back pain from a car accident a few years ago. We showed her the pictured and praying healing in Jesus name. The pain went down, and we prayed one more time, and she was completely healed with no more pain and full mobility!  WOW GOD. Sunday Morning Morgan preached and a few of us served in the Children's Ministry. Then that night we had another service. Sunday was amazing and a lot of breakthrough in emotional health, breaking off trauma, depression, and getting to the route of a lot of issues and giving people permission to feel their feelings and not numb their hearts- I continuously surprised by how common this is. Emotional health and processing pain and emotions is extremely important in their church because they also have an extensive heart and ministry for helping people through addictions. Many addictions and like alcoholism starts from having pain in your life.  We will see freedom in people's lives, and brought to family and wholeness! SO POWERFUL,  tons of people came up and received prayer, and many would start crying and say "I haven't been able to cry in so long, I normally don't cry". I strongly believe crying is GOOD for your soul because you NEED to release and process emotions.  Then Monday I helped out with the Art Fair at their elementary school and activated some kids in painting on stage during worship! They did an EXCELLENT job and were able to explain to their classmates what they felt God was releasing through their paintings: "God is greater than your fear", "God's love and light is overtaking the darkness of evil". SO RELEVANT AND POWERFUL! And then we left, and flew back to California. <3 It was a short but FULL trip. Emotionally and Physically. Thankful for all the friends I made on that trip well, I will DEFINITELY be seeing you again and my heart was sad to leave all of you! So thank you all for your prayers and generosity. I have been so blessed to be around and lead by such inspirational people who are catalysts for change and wholeness, and the gospel.  Christ is far better than we often think- I would hate to become so familiar with someone I barely know.  I love the Lord with all my heart, mind, soul and strength, he is far better than anything this world has to offer.  He is so lovely and I am so thankful.  Thank you all for reading! Another personal note and growth email of my personal journey will soon follow.  Bless you!! His Beloved Marianna How to pray in this season? -The Virus to be Contained and Health Providers are fully Prepared. -That Government Officials across the world will have divine wisdom and act accordingly -People with the Virus are healed -That we are complete health zone and since we have the living God inside of us, every sickness dies within our touch. -That in Isolation people become still, present, and encounter Jesus. -That Families will be Reconciled, and Marriages healed and Divorces Canceled. -Prodigals Come Home -PEACE TO THE WORLD.

MENTAL WELLNESS # 3 ARMOR

LAST ONE. For NOW.. MENTAL ILLNESS/WELLNESS
#3 ARMOR OF GOD

Go back and read 1 and 2 if you haven't, about Shame and Intimacy! This is the more Meaty Post because the Bible is important.

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FAITH is a powerful thing, it’s a gift given to us (Eph. 2:10), and it’s also our shield (Eph. 6), but sometimes when we don’t feel something, we become discouraged. Feeling isn’t our truth, our experiences don’t define truth. The word promises that God never leaves us, his love for us never fails, THAT is the truth. And I will hold onto it no matter what I am feeling, because the reality is my feelings tell me I need to realign myself with truth.
Let’s go deeper into the ARMOR of GOD.

MENTAL WELLNESS #2INTIMACY

Mental Illnesss/ 3 PART PROCESS- #2 INTIMACY
1.Shame
2.Intimacy
3.Armor
Excited for this second part of Mental Illness/Wellness. If you have not seen the first post about Shame, I highly encourage you to go read it!
I got a lot of feedback from my last painting, thank you for all your kind comments! But, my heart was more drawn to the fact that so many of us have been going through this silent battle in our mind and heart.
You are not alone.
You don't have to be silent, anymore.
//(preface: doctors are great, God is great. here is some insight from my experiences, not the ultimate answers)

MENTAL WELLNESS #1

/Mental Illnesss/ 3 PART PROCESS- #1 SHAME
1.Shame
2.Intimacy
3.Armor

I got a lot of feedback from my last painting, thank you for all your kind comments! But, my heart was more drawn to the fact that so many of us have been going through this silent battle in our mind and heart.
You are not alone.
You don't have to be silent, anymore.
//(preface: doctors are great, God is great. here is some insight from my experiences, not the ultimate answers)

We need to realize that Satan is real. There is too much evidence of darkness and a dark being throughout history to say that he's not. We need to acknowledge that God is real, through time and history, darkness and light, beings of creation and darkness have fought. But Adonai, Father God, Jesus, has fought for your soul, your heart, your mind.And light wins every time.

However, even if we live in a village, a kingdom, a body that has been "saved", that is deemed a worthy citizen, our mind can still be clouded and we can still be battling lies and feeling worthless and purposeless. Timothy in the Bible must have, that's why Paul wrote to him and said hold on to all of the amazing promises over your life, hold on to words your Father spoke over you, things that you are capable of and inside of you, because when you loose sight of vision, and presence, you lose sight of you, and Him, and life.

Third Times the Charm

Welcome to the beautiful thoughts of Marianna Glatzel. We have arrived to third year of BSSM, where I am under the Mentorship of the wonderful Theresa Dedmon.

I honestly forgot that I created a blog, and then I had the unction to write and remembered that it exists. How sublime.

Currently just considering all of the beautiful promises and recent encounters God has blessed me with.
It's interesting that the majority of the prophetic words spoken over me had a theme of creativity, teaching, ministry, and prophecy. I have only gotten Pastor twice, but both times it was turned more into a Pastoral gifting than being a pastor(which I am totally cool with). I believe that the calling on my life is much bigger than that.

Spiritual Journey

In school, we have been going after prayer and honestly 2nd year has been dramatically different than 1st year for me. 1st year we focused on our identity, knowing who God is and that we are powerful sons and daughters. There was a lot of growth, but also a lot of discomfort, introspection, performance, and homesickness. But then, seeing tons of breakthrough second semester and growing so much in who I am and who He is. 
IN CONTRAST, so far (two months in)Second year has had the beautiful focus of laying everything down for Jesus. Second Year's focus is Leadership through Servanthood. Thus, our worship times, prayer meetings, serving opportunities, and just everything we do is covered with the focus of Jesus and servant love- which is absolutely beautiful.

"College Hacks"

Hello friends, I'm currently 18 with the imminent birthday quickly approaching, March 18th. I've been able to truly "be an adult" for my first year of adulthood! I made the almost nonexistent transition  from youth to young adult. This transition felt nonexistent similarly to how a beginner swimmer would feel if you threw them into the water and expected them to be able to figure it out, and maybe if you're lucky, immediately know how to do the front strike back stroke and butterfly.
At least thus far I've been able to get air, and almost swim to the other side of the pool. My idea of adulthood is around the concept of being able to say no to yourself (however that should be a goal for every age), but also being your own provider and no longer living under the direct guide of your parents. For me, not everyone, this is what adulthood looks like.
And thus, the reinvention of Marianna has taken place. Being my own independent, but INTER-dependent person in California, all the way across the country from my home in Wisconsin. Key term is INTER-dependent. Its not healthy to be Co-Dependent, and its not our ultimate goal to be Independent forever, we're made for relationships and connections. Thus my need for God, for my family, my Revival group family, my friends, and my roommate and housemates. They all have helped me through so much and we all need people around us, for us to pour into, and for them to pour into us.
I have often felt alone, or without hope, or just clueless and helpless on how to go about doing life on my own. But here I am! Alive and well fed, a roof over my head, a bed, I go to school, do life. It seems all hunky-dory. I've learned lessons, made plenty of mistakes, and did some adventuring.

NOW . THE FUN STUFF .
12 New Lessons
Since being here, I've done numerous of random "hacks", or makeshift recipes or solutions or alternative manner for doing something. I hope you find enjoyment in their randomness, plainness, or helpful descriptions. :)

"Sugar Free Cookie Dough".
Have you ever wanted cookie dough but without all of the risks and threats of uncooked ingredients? What about wanting to eat it, but not wanted to tons of sugar dumped in those little piles of goodness? WELL I've got the solution that will satisfy that temporary craving!
Self served, in a bowl.

Banana  1/2-1/4 of a banana either previously frozen or regular
Butter    4 TBSP
Cinnamon 1 TBSP
Sour Cream 2TBSP
Instant Oatmeal 2/3 Cup
Vanilla Extract 1 Tsp
Honey 1  TBSP
These measurements aren't exact, play around with it. Directions: Melt butter in bowl, add bananas once both are blendable(if frozen bananas, put them in the bowl with the butter and microwave them till melted or soft). Add honey, if needed warm up again so honey can be melted together. Add rest of ingredients. Stir, place in the microwave for 1:20 sec. Stir and enjoy.

"Sugar Free" Homemade Ice cream!
My milk was expiring so I made it into ice cream and cream of potato soup. I had about 1 TBSP of Vanilla, 3-4 Cups of Milk, 1-2 TBSP of honey. *Experiment by adding creamer in with milk, or sour cream, half and half, or whipped cream.
In a sauce pan add milk, honey, and vanilla on low heat. Stir till honey seems completely mixed in or milk begins to froth. Freeze, once frozen blend it in a blender. Voila.

***Also, almost all recipes that call for sugar I've either replaced with honey or bananas, and can easily be replaced with dates if so desired.

More learning experiences have been...
1.taking public transportation, and my bike- getting two flats,
2.spending way too much money on groceries but intending to live
 off of the food for two months, or at least a month and a half,...also
3.the importance of not just feeding your thoughts with trash- especially when lonely or homesick.
4. Make sure you have fun! Laugh! Do something you love, like drawing, dancing, OR
ZUMMBA. I've started looking up Zumba videos on Youtube and following along. It's a great way to get your exercise while having fun, and is an opportunity for the whole house! Especially if you want to learn Napoleon Dynamite's whole dance routine.

5.I've been on a date, gone swing dancing, gone to parties,

6. sobbed praying for a man who showed me what true faith and joy looks like, comforted my sobbing roommate while she was watching a war movie,

7. gotten so frustrated while trying to find things in the grocery store and overwhelmed by their varieties and prices,

8. gone to the rock climbing gym by myself and survived, and have recently have had the freedom and pleasure of exploring the outdoor areas around my apartment, in the park and random trails that I recently learned existed.

9. It's definitely good to start finding things that help you realize how beautiful your new home is, and to appreciate it more. Appreciation is huge and I feel lead to start intentionally finding time to call friends and family, and write thank you cards.
10. I've been using social media as a gateway for truth, like talking about sex to lead towards a love revolution and bring things out the dark.
11. I'm also processing and have been attempting to manage my food intake more- not eat when I'm bored, and not to think about food so much, especially when its so fun to make/cook/bake! As well as getting sleep, staying on task, and getting exercise in!! We sit down for hours on end at school, so I find essential to find time to get my heart rate up and engage my body.

All of the above can be their own stories, and you might start to see them appear in later posts. However, if you are extremely intrigued about a specific subject, or want advice or have questions about a topic, definitely comment or let me know!! I love starting conversations, this is an online and public journal to open up the conversation. Your turn!

Thank you for reading,
His Beloved Marianna